My prayer. Our prayers. And grief.

My prayer.
Our prayers.

And grief.
Love you Alden Andrews and all that you overcame and all you fought to stay with us.
Damn.
Damn.
Damn.

A message from Kendra Vinal:
UPDATE
3/14/20 11:30PM
The 3rd cardiac arrest happened and we were in the ICU waiting room. The charge nurse came out explaining what was happening and advised that pretty much after the last one they were already concerned that there was extensive brain damage due to no circulation for over 10 minutes. His mother and I went into see him and the entire team still working on him. She had to make the call because we both knew he would not want that quality of life.

Alden lost his fight at 7:22pm this evening.

I do hope that everyone understands that the delay of this announcement was out of respect to our families, as they needed to hear it from us first and not through social media. We appreciate everyone's love and support throughout this terrible ordeal.

We will be sure to keep everyone updated with details of his Celebration of Life. From the bottoms of our hearts, we thank each and everyone of you for your daily prayers.

Prayers. My prayer. Alden Andrews I love you.

Prayers. My prayer.
Alden Andrews I love you.
May you have known this and all the love that surrounds you.

My deepest condolences to his family.
Heart sick.

Update:YESTERDAY
by Kendra Vinal, Organizer
UPDATE
3/14/20 11:30PM
The 3rd cardiac arrest happened and we were in the ICU waiting room. The charge nurse came out explaining what was happening and advised that pretty much after the last one they were already concerned that there was extensive brain damage due to no circulation for over 10 minutes. His mother and I went into see him and the entire team still working on him. She had to make the call because we both knew he would not want that quality of life.

Alden lost his fight at 7:22pm this evening.

I do hope that everyone understands that the delay of this announcement was out of respect to our families, as they needed to hear it from us first and not through social media. We appreciate everyone's love and support throughout this terrible ordeal.

We will be sure to keep everyone updated with details of his Celebration of Life. From the bottoms of our hearts, we thank each and everyone of you for your daily prayers.

My prayer. Another prayer.

My prayer. Another prayer.

Another update:
by Kendra Vinal, Organizer
UPDATE
3/14/20 7:13PM
He flatlined again at 6:52pm. They continued to do CPR for over 10 minutes. His pulse has returned. My whole world stopped turning and all I could do was watch and pray harder than I ever have in my life, telling him to come back. We need him.
I'm beside myself. How will I ever sleep again? He's still with us guys. Don't give up on him ❤

My prayer. A most difficult journey.

My prayer.
A most difficult journey. My heart aches for this family.
From Kendra Vinal.

TODAY
by Kendra Vinal, Organizer
UPDATE
3/14/20 5:30PM
They've brought him back. They got his heartbeat back and are working to raise his blood pressure now. He's still extremely critical and he needs everyone's continuous love and prayers <3
TODAY
by Kendra Vinal, Organizer
UPDATE
3/14/20 5:20PM
HE JUST FLATLINED! They're actively working on him right now. Please, he needs everyone's prayers right now!!!
TODAY
by Kendra Vinal, Organizer
UPDATE
3/14/20 4:30PM
My apologies on the delayed update. I needed to go home to tend to affairs, see my children and gather things for my continued stay with Alden. He went into surgery at about 11:30am and he just got out several minutes ago. They did end up amputating his leg up to the pelvis. It's still open and packed but his bleeding should cease. I asked the orthopedic surgeon if it was possible to use any of the flesh from the severed leg to use as a skin graft. He said "that's a great question. I will follow up on that". So, more to come. He did say that the surgery went well. He was at extreme risk for cardiac arrest but he made it! He's one tough mother trucker! Hopefully this will alleviate the stress on his kidneys so that they can begin functioning again. He's currently getting resettled into the ICU and will need another transfusion. He will go into surgery again tomorrow to flush out the leg wound and ensure that there's nothing else dying. Things are looking up. I'll keep everyone updated. Keep the prayers coming! They're working! ❤

My prayer. Update on Alden Andrews from Kendra Vinal.

My prayer.
Update on Alden Andrews from Kendra Vinal (updates are available on the gofundme page):
TODAY
by Kendra Vinal, Organizer
UPDATE
3/14/20 7:45AM
My babe has survived another night! Alden stabilized enough that they were able to take him back into surgery early this morning. They removed more of his damaged bowel and were able to stop/slow the major bleeding to his leg. He's back in ICU. His temperature looks good, but his blood pressure is dangerously low. They're giving him more blood products. He's already extremely swollen everywhere from fluid retention. He did not have a lot of urine output last night, nor much since surgery ended around 4 this morning. There is SOME output so his kidneys have not completely failed. Hopefully he can remain stabilized throughout the day and his kidneys will continue to improve without the stress of the damaged bowel and leg bleed stressing it further. He's still fighting to stay with us. A nurse told me he even moved his hand earlier. Please keep sending love and prayers his way, he's still extremely sick. I Love you all

Another prayer. Another update on Alden Andrews.

Another prayer.

Another update on Alden Andrews:
by Kendra Vinal, Organizer
UPDATE
3/13/20 6:15PM
He's back in ICU from surgery. Labs are a bit off, primarily his potassium, calcium and glucose. They're running another course of dialysis. His lower abdomen and pelvis are packed and they're continuing to leave it open. They've been having some trouble due to the location to keep the vacuum seal on his abdomen but are still "doing arts and crafts" as they put it. His temperature has dropped due to the dialysis but they're raising it slowly with an inflatable plastic blanket that I can only describe as a transparent pool floaty and blankets. Please continue to pray that he stabilizes. He's still critically sick.
I cannot express my gratitude to everyone and I have to believe he's still with us for a reason and that he can feel the love, regardless of distance. ❤

This is my prayer.

This is my prayer.

Update on Alden Andrews:
TODAY
by Kendra Vinal, Organizer
UPDATE
3/13/20 2:30pm
They were able to locate a pulse on the front of his leg but no tibial pulse. There is extensive muscle damage as it was pretty much ripped off, and there is a lot of skin missing. They've decided not to amputate at this time, but they will reassess in a few days. His labs are still not good because the stress of the damage to his body and his kidneys are failing to keep up. They have repacked his leg for now. They also had to remove a section of his colon. He has reactive pupils, which is still a good sign. The surgeons have prefaced the next surgery should he stabilize and survive. He's still critically ill but my man is still fighting to stay with us. Please keep him in your prayers, as I truly believe that it's helped him to survive this long. It's not his time.
Due to security reasons and high risk of infection he is unable to have visitors at this time. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for all of the support and for your understanding during this devastating time. 

Friday morning at the MaineWorks circle often includes guests from the community.

Friday morning at the MaineWorks circle often includes guests from the community. This morning we were delighted to welcome Andy Lilienthal, from Camp Winnebago where "'Winnebagans' achieve extremely high results and campers understand the value that being supportive of each other makes, while gaining leadership experience, emotional intelligence, physical confidence and skills over the course of the summer."
What did Andy think of the circle? He referred to it as community. And community building is where growth can blossom. Thank you Andy for meeting us all.

If photographs are prayers, and posting is a vigil, here's another one for you, Alden.

If photographs are prayers, and posting is a vigil, here's another one for you, Alden. You're on one hell of a journey.
You survived the Opioid Epidemic.
Now you face yet another challenge of a lifetime.
But you're out of strong stuff woven.
With you in prayer....

Alden Andrews, formerly a MaineWorks employee was struck by a tractor trailer in Liberty, Maine this week.
He is in the hospital in critical condition. Updates available of his gofundme page posted below:

https://www.gofundme.com/f/medical-and-family-expenses-for-hit-an-run-victim

An update on Alden Andrews

An update on Alden Andrews:

UPDATE
3/13/20 9:15am -
Your prayers are working! He continued to fight for his life and is still with us today. He's currently on dialysis to stabilize his labs. When it's completed and his blood pressure has restabilized he will be sent to the OR for his next surgery. Today the orthopedic surgeons will be cleaning up his mangled leg, putting pins in and assessing bloodflow to determine what can be saved. Life over limb. Please keep him in your thoughts today <3
From Kendra Vinal who is organizing the gofundme.

Sometimes someone offers more than I imagine they can. Willingly. Quietly. Without fanfare.

Sometimes someone offers more than I imagine they can. Willingly. Quietly. Without fanfare. But what I know he can offer, and does, are his intentions and his deepest desires for everyone to benefit.His prayers.
It is so often that the one with the least is willing to offer money in hand to give back. The one who is scraping the bottom who offers what they have with extraordinary generosity. With a heart as big as the ocean and as deep.

Your faith in the best outcome for us all is the gold I can accept. Really, a heart of gold. 

If photographs can be prayers then I'm gonna be posting a lot of this guy.

If photographs can be prayers then I'm gonna be posting a lot of this guy. One of the original Pioneers of Recovery I met at MaineWorks four years ago.
In fact he was part of the group that inspired that reference to Pioneers. He was generous with his time and descriptions of his own journey and gave me great insight to the pain and loss of addiction...and the energy required to recover.

He was victim of a hit and run in Liberty, Maine last night. And remains in very, very tough shape. His brother is asking for prayers. I understand his condition is critical.
If photographs can be prayers you'll be seeing a lot of him. DAMN.

It is true that this guy, a Pioneer of Recovery that I met at MaineWorks four years ago is in very, very serious shape after a hit and run in Liberty, Maine.

It is true that this guy, a Pioneer of Recovery that I met at MaineWorks four years ago is in very, very serious shape after a hit and run in Liberty, Maine. Heartsick. Absolutely heartsick. If you are able to contribute there is a gofundme set up that will help he and his family. God knows he deserves the assistance.
Praying for you, buddy.....praying.

What love looks like.

What love looks like. A moment after the proposal. She said YES. Congratulations Ben and Athena.

—with Ben Klebe

So. Two years ago I may not have had an imagination big enough to imagine this moment. Things looked a lot different then.

So. Two years ago I may not have had an imagination big enough to imagine this moment. Things looked a lot different then.
This is Ben Klebe, having just proposed to Athena...and she said yes.
Congratulations Ben and Athena. And cheers to people overcoming daunting odds.
You may recognize Ben as a staff member at MaineWorks.

Every once in a while, in a world filled with its' share of despair and seemingly irreparable brokenness, I am invited to witness the joy.

Every once in a while, in a world filled with its' share of despair and seemingly irreparable brokenness, I am invited to witness the joy.

She said YES.
Congratulations Ben and Athena!

—with Ben Klebe

Sometimes it's remarkable to stand in the light.

Sometimes it's remarkable to stand in the light. To look at the world with eyes wide open. To build a life with the scaffolding of intention and support. Making change. Cheers to the Pioneers of Recovery at MaineWorks. 

As I move between street and MaineWorks what I feel is this:

As I move between street and MaineWorks what I feel is this:
It is not easy to show up here at the MaineWorks Circle. No one shows up here because it's been easy. No one shows up that isn't fighting a battle on many fronts. Struggles with past. Struggles with present. Struggles with envisioning a future, of having the energy of hope to propel them forward. Because hope is like that. It isn't passive. It requires an energy and when you are exhausted by life and by all that has happened and all you have done and all that the hijacked brain of an addict will do then there's a storm cloud you have to steer through each day. A mad dog gnashing it's teeth at your heels. And I stand next to them. Hear stories that break my heart but not to the degree theirs have been broken. Of lost and painful and sometimes unjust childhoods; of repeated failures and broken promises and the distance one can grow from what we love in the throes of addiction. I stand there and pretty much want to salute those that can show up. Repeatedly. And for those that cannot, who disappear after a week? I hold you in my heart. A welcome mat at the front door to my heart, swept clean each morning. You have taught me that. Thank you Margo Walsh for living this.

A message left at the MaineWorks office this morning, written in cursive on a MaineWorks pad:

A message left at the MaineWorks office this morning, written in cursive on a MaineWorks pad:

Brave One,
Brokenness comes from pressure, healing comes from love. Only peace of mind can be a bandage. Yet who can experience any of the above without first stepping into the pain?
———————
Anonymous. We don't know who to thank or credit.
Wisdom on the Scratch Pad.
Amen.

-with Ben Klebe

Good morning from a MaineWorks employee fur friend.

Good morning from a MaineWorks employee fur friend.