Dear Anonymous,
There is no romanticizing any of this. The weight of health issues, mental and physical, the interplay of substances and the toll it has taken over time, the lack of sleep, irregular nutrition, and hopelessness takes it's toll.
What does he really want? To be able to have someone listen. He asks for a little journal and pen to organize his day, his thoughts, his world. I hope he fills it up and I will replenish it again and again, because in the absence of a listening heart there is the page to help us through.